I need it in writting

Yes in writing please, or maybe daily notes ,shoot even better a little person who sits on my shoulder  and  informs me every time my children and even my dear dear ....oh so dear ....bahahahaha ..... husband does something that makes me go WTH that it is normal!! Maybe not even normal but that yes it happens, to many other families, in many other homes, to parents even ones I know who are feeling the same way I am at that very moment. The frustration with my child's behavior when every other child around them isn't acting that way, even ones younger. My husbands ridiculous tyrants and the many moments he might as well be my 3rd child. I can not tell you how many times a day I re-evaluate my skills as a parent, how I'm parenting, how I'm not parenting lol.

                                                      Its bloody hell stressful I tell ya!!!!

      Yes I over think things- hell I over think everything, it is the brain I was cursed with. This brain is also the one that makes me socially retarded in every aspect. Hello sidetracked..................... so please little angel or demon or forget all that I want a hot muscular vampire ( ahahahahah-go ahead say it!) to sit on my shoulder and say YES the fact that your 5 year old isn't paying attention, hasn't been paying attention for the last 10 mins and prob won't pay attention the rest of the time your where you are is normal and happens to even the best parents whom you never see have to deal with their child this way in public. That YES your 2 year old who god forbid has to go in a car seat, stroller or hell the dreaded shopping cart and is screaming at you while spitting and head butting is normal or done by all the other 2 year olds that you cant seem to see anywhere even for the rest of the day, juts yours!. And then while they are at is can they please tell all the rude people staring at me because of this that they can kindly kiss my ass and go find someone else to gap at!!

   Everyday is a learning experience, a new day filled full of god knows what!! And I love it...well lets be honest, most of the time!  I can't tell you how nice it would be to know the whole world- ok the whole room/store/restaurant WHATEVER isn't watching mine and my child's every move thinking OMG that kids horrible, NO child has ever done that before! It gives me some kind of relief, a breath of fresh air to hear a parent or wife tell me a story that sounds oh so familiar. Or to see( it happens so so rarely) it in public. Tomorrow is a new day, one that doesn't involve any public places or people- a vacation for me ha ha! Someday it all gets easier...right? or maybe I'll just stop being so hard on myself. And if, just if someone happens to be a saint, a god send and writes a book, THE BOOK,  on raising children please let me know!(a person can dream right?!)



    

Rocking New Mexico!

    This weekend we ventured the 377 miles to Albuquerque, New Mexico for the New Mexico State championships . Despite the first nights ridiculous hotel shenanigans we had a very enjoyable dinner with friends and a great feis! Keelie has been working very hard the last month with her dance teachers to prepare for this feis.

     For those not Feis/Irish dance knowledgeable lol the way it works is.... You start out as a beginner 1 and you learn 4 dances : Reel, Light Jig, Slip Jig and Single Jig. When you compete at a feis you have to place 1st, 2nd or 3rd out of at least 5 dancers to move to beginner 2 . Once in beginner 2 you have to place 1st or 2nd( pending amount in the competition) to move to novice and it gets harder from there. You also start hard shoe dances - Double Jigs, Hornpipe and Saint Patricks Day. Once you have 4 dances at a novice level you can earn a solo dress( the fancy sparkly dresses) from there you go to prizewinner then pre-lim champ then open champ. Each dance is done by age level so "most "of the time Keelie dances with kids close to her age. ( I'm typing via cell phone so excuse any errors in info)

     It was very random the amount of kids in each of Keelie's dances. So some of them had enough to move up if she placed well and others didn't. Her first dance was the reel and she rocked it!. She looked so good, arms and all I thought for sure at least top 3( 7 dancers total) we were so excited to see she got first- it was one of those I'm going to cry moments we were so proud of her. This dance was her first placement into a novice level dance Then her light jig- she rocked it too! A few things she could have done better to earn that top spot but hey we will take 2nd, this dance has been her soft shoe nemesis!!This placement moved her from beginner 1 to beginner 2! Keelie kind of seemed to lose steam and focus at this point... she is only 5..... her slip jig wasn't the best but she got out there and did it and earned a 3rd place, however not enough dancers to move up. The last soft shoe dance was her single jig and it looked pretty good- this dance has lots of leaps- something her little butt has to work a lot on! But she earned herself a 4th place and a lunch break! I initially dreaded this lunch break but it was heaven sent. Keelie badly needed a break. Refueled and focus back on Keelie rocked her Treble Jig and Saint Patricks' day...... her hornpipe on the other hand has become her hard shoe nemesis. No matter how many times she practices it right she always forgets the second step while performing it. She placed 3rd in the first two and no placement in the hornpipe, none of these dances had enough kids to move up except the hornpipe. Due to the lower number of participants at this feis all of Keelie's competitions were combined with older age groups. So as a 5 year she competed in the U9 group for all her hard shoe  dances and to get 3rd with  kids 2,3 & 4 years older then her I think makes her our rock star! We all had fun this weekend, it was a great short family trip even Deklan behaved very well, especially considering the hours we had to wait for results! So 2 more dances closer to her pretty dress and we are looking forward to the upcoming Saint Patricks' events and 2 more out of town Feis's!

   

Gah

Ok I don't know how to say this without it sounding rude, I know people don't conspire together and then all come to talk to me, but I'm me, I'm not someone else's mother, babysitter or information center. So maybe people should think before constantly asking me about this other person. It's nice to know people only care about how the other person is not me... Did you once think about me. I'm not a selfish person but I'm so sick of this, I can't even leave the state, I'm still asked. Let me tell you how shitty of a feeling it is that I'm not cool unless this person is with me, I'm not worth people's time or how I'am or anything about me isn't important. They proved not to be the friend I thought they were and thats crappy enough in itself. So if you don't give a crap about me, please do me a favor and don't ask me about them cause the crappy feeling really sucks.

30 DAY BLOG CHALLENGE!

YES I'm going to make myself do it! And I picked one that is a bit different then most. Not your typical post a picture of yourself blog challenge !

Some parents make me wonder

So I get it , lots of people don't celebrate certain holidays.... But to not celebrate a single freaking holiday? Um why? I try not to judge.... Scratch that Im guilty as sin but these parents def do not strike me as the type- yes I'm stereotyping! Keelie has a kid in her class- his family doesn't celebrate a single and I mean 1 single holiday. So of course the rest of the class has to accommodate this one child everytime a holiday party comes around. Now I think what bothers me even more is this child's reactions to anything holiday. I helped out in the class this week and we used leftover Christmas plates for a project . This child went off for 10 mins about these plates. I get it.... Ok I don't get it but I will try to pretend to get that they choose not to celebrate but please teach your child respect for those who still do as I will teach mine respect for your child who doesn't celebrate. I'm sure ill get a shame on you from somewhere for this!

Giving up

Seriously........ I say I quit every now and then cause I'm frustrated at the moment but today ,hell for the past month I'm stuck. Stuck in this rut... I have lost any and all control over my emotions and feelings- WTH is this, why am I so damn low and can't get out? Everywhere I turn is another event pushing me deeper into the "dark". When did people become so damn rude and so selfish, if I interrupted a conversation you better believe im somehow made to know it, but someone interupts mine and im the bad person.It's one thing for one person in my life to ignore my feelings and make them invalid but my god it's everyone. I can't talk without being argued with, not listened to, interrupted, made to feel dumb or annoying god you name it- seriously after the constantness of it I might as well just shut up. I've heard how things I say are "deadened" or don't warrant a response .... All the while I'm thinking wow I can come up with 10 responses and what I just said was important to me so damn sure would have been nice to get one. It is that hard? What the hell is wrong with me? Do I suck that bad, am I that annoying or uncool that I can't be given the time of day, that I can't be included. I watched a new person come in- shes beautiful , gorgeous family yada yada and guess what she's the center of attention- everyone talks about her when she's not there, when she is everyone cares how her life or day is. Ya not here- prob wouldn't even notice if I was gone. Damn it I'm so sick of these feelings- I don't wish my mind on anyone it's a freaking curse. I'm fighting tears at every thought , who the hell gave us emotions cause they genuinely suck. Competition- that's how life feels. A competion for everything - I'm trying so hard to teach Keelie the right way and yet every turn is another competition- who's better then who, who gets more attention then who,really for christs sake- then I wonder why my child makes the horrible comments she does- its everywhere around her- how do you teach the opposite when that's all that's in your face. I used to think that you needed to surround yourself with people who cared , who were support , but I quickly discovered that was wrong. All you needed were a very few who truely cared, but my god that's dwindling to none. Will and I choose the people everyday to be involved in the kids lives ( to the extent of our power) but so many keep choosing not to be a part of their lives , you ask why and all you get is excuses. Is that the new way of life - do whatever and have an excuse for everything you couldn't be bothered to do? Makes me question my ability to make the right choices these days. Well my emotions seem unchecked for a few mins anyways- a jumble of 50 million feelings that make no sense :/

2013 Irish Dance Schedule

Its A new year which means a new Irish Dance schedule!!!

* Keelie dances at the time I list on each feis, so if you want to attend you must be there at that time or you will miss her*


Febuary- 
New mexico State Championships
Feb 23-24
Hyatt Regency Albuquerque
330 Tijeras NW
Albuquerque, NM 87102


March- Saint Patricks Day!!
More info as it becomes available
Parade- 16th
Recital- 17th 6:30pm Coronado Highschool


April-
Feile Denver
April 14th
Laramer County Fairgrounds
Loveland, Co


Feis Salt Lake City
April 27
Jordan highschool
95 Beetdigger Blvd
Sandy, Utah 84123


May- none yet!

June-
Pikes Peak Feis
June 15th
Bear Creek Elementary
1330 Creekside Drive
Monument, Co 80132


July-
Colorado Irish Festival
July 14th
Clement Park
7306 W Bowles Ave
Littleton, Co 80123

This is a Hopeful!!!
Dance for Life
July 21
Seattle , WA

August-
Cowboy State Feis
August 24th
Kaelly Walsh Highschool
3500 E 12th Street
Casper, WY 82609


September- we attend the whole festival for a week!
Longs Peak Scotish/Irish Festival
September 8th
Stanley Park
1209 Manford ave
Estes Park, Co 80517

This is a HOPEFULL!
Baltimore Feis
Sept 21

October-
Octoberfeis
Greenwood village, Co
will update info for this later

November-
Colorado Fall Feis
Loveland, Co
will update this info later when its available